Hey everyone..... i know its been a while since i last updated my blog... *sigh*.. so much has happen since my last post . I have so much jumbled up feelings that i dunno what to say or do at times... I wanna let u know in a second... Just that i dont know where to start ... um ... I guess ill just list it down.. and later on ill elaborate one by one in my future blogs...
1) The most ultimate devastating moment in my 2011 ,is that i LOST the
person that i love the most .. She was the rock my family lean on.. and she
was my go-to person in need on advice or just needed someone
to just listen to my wines, problem.. and even share my happiness.
After battling cancer since 2009, It came back and took her away from me
=(.. I dont hate god for taking her away, im happy that her misery, her
pain and her torment has ended. But im selfish as i want her with me for
my big day, to share my happiness... But i know she blessed the marriage
and bless the person i choose. =). And i know she's happy in heaven and
always looking down on me and my family ...
2) After the heart-breaking lost of my mother, ppl QUESTIONED my decision
to go through with my MOST happy occasion for 2011...YES, Im getting
Married!!! hehehe ... But what ppl dont know or should know is that .
It was one of my mom's last wishes for the occasion to keep going . She
made my dad, myself and my families promised that ".. the show must go
on, DO NOT CANCELLED" .... So, this is for her. I can still feel her around
me at times. I sometimes get caught off guard ,when there are moments
that i forgot that she is no longer with me . But i know she will always look
down on me and my fiancée, my brother and my future.. and She was, will
and always be our Guardian Angel =)..
3) I have finally come to terms and realize that i have also lost a friendship
with a dear friend that i though was a "Friends for Life" ... But looking
back, i just feel numb.. Even after being friends for soo long i realize
she doesn't know me at all .One thing with me or the " +/-" thing about
me, depending on how u see it. I will I cant even if i want too. Cause
for me , when i loved someone or something i remember all the happiness,
good times, and even the ultimate bad times. Something in me remember
even the smallest things. As much as misunderstanding goes, there
are some problems that cant be cure with a Sorry . Just because u've
forgotten or want to forget. I will always and still miss that Girl that i use to
call my "Best friend". But i dont see even the shadow of that girl that i
know... thats the part that i regret and miss the most. But i know
She's happy with her new life, new friends.. At the end of the day thats
all she ever deserve... =).
These are the major events /ordeal in my life for the year of 2011... Although i have more to share... but this will be all for my post for today . I will share the story individually soon... For those of you who took the time to read through my Blog... Bless you always ... and Insyallah will try to update more hot spot and new places and activities to try hehehe ...=)....
xoxoxoxo, Mie...!!
