The Warrior and Queen is my Life.... - Part II -

{Continued from Part I }

Me and my boyfriend has been dating for the past 7 years, although my mom was at first reluctant for me to be in a serious committed relationship with an older guy when I was just 18 years old. Not because she didn’t approve of the guy, it was because she doesn’t want me getting too serious or married at a young age. After a almost seven years of seeing me genuinely happy with my boyfriend. She finally breach the subject of marriage , after suggesting and agreeing to meet with His parents in February we were soon in agreement that the wedding will be held at the end of the year in November . I was ecstatic but was flustered at how soon the month was approaching.

With the planning in progress and excitement building up , my mom slowly express the concern that the symptoms of her 2009 cancer was haunting her and the pain and aches were similar as it was years ago .  In April of 2011, she frequented HUKM with concerns she was having that the cancer is back. The nurses without checking her medical history at HUKM told my mum that the symptoms that she was having was because of the result of Menopause.

Only after harsh persistent from my brother and I, to one of the doctors in charge, only then my mom’s medical history was looked into and only then they took a better examination of her. In May, we got back the results of all the blood test, x-rays and whatever results of test they did on her body. The news was devastating, after 4 years of coming for regular check-up’s , pep smear and whatever blood test at HUKM and not once was the result a negative one. The result came back negative of all accounts, from a stupid comment of it being “result if menopause” suddenly became a nightmare for the whole family… The cancer was back had already escalated to a stage four cancer with the cell already covered her lungs, liver, basically her whole upper body.

This time I was ready and aware my part in my family, I was with my mom when we got the bad news. My heart dropped and relieving that moment back at the doctor’s office when we got the bad news bringing tears to my eyes, made my palms cold and clammy as it was at that moment. The look my mom HAD will forever haunt me. Her disbelief of the news after coming for regular checkups , eating all her medication, taking care of what she ate and drink (beside the one-in-a-while treats she gave herself) , doing all and everything the doctors ever told her to do .. She had a hard time understanding where it went wrong. Everyone was…

{ to be continued in Part III }